When I’ve taken tests to evaluate how I operate, time and time again, I’ve been termed a “doer,” or “action-oriented.” The results haven’t surprised me, but have given me a label I can use for myself. These labels are very true. More often than not, my desires and plans come into fruition. For example, when I said I was going to study abroad in Australia, I made it happen. Saved enough money, enrolled in productive courses, bought my own airfare, and was on my way. When I’m thinking of buying a specific product, I will do it. I’ll do my research, shop around, and make the purchase. Or, if I want to be part of a Christians mom group, I will find one to be a part of. What Daniel and I have in common is that we don’t just talk fluffy about our grand plans in life, or in general, make a desirable statement or commitment we don’t follow through on. We are doers and we do well. We did well when we weren’t walking intimately with Christ, but now we doing even better as Christians. How’s that possible though?!
Let me explain to my best of abilities. Before I truly knew Jesus, I worked hard. I mapped out my goals, wrote down accomplishments that would get me there, had a timeline, etc. I was an extreme doer who felt I needed to take control of my life in order for it to be successful and to become the life I dreamt for myself. All this controlling and working from my own strength (and I’m a strong gal!!) exhausted me, left me empty, lonely, unhappy, purposeless, and the like. Yes, I had all the accolades and experiences to assign to my name, but had I grown from life lessons? Had I truly loved and served others? Had I enjoyed my life journey and been present? No, no, no. Putting my faith in God and seeking His will has been a life changing process. It’s no longer about me and my selfish desires. (I still forget this sometimes). I pray to try to discover what God wants me to do in each situation, person, and the future. Yes, Daniel and I make our plans, but they are drenched in prayer before, during, and afterwards in thanksgiving. I also don’t “work” as hard being a doer. God guides me with prompts regarding new challenges for personal growth, knowledge about Him and His word, and how to serve others. And don’t get me wrong, walking in His will has many down moments. But regardless, I’m a lot more peaceful, content, and rested as a result. And furthermore, I’m very happy. I know it’s not on me to make this life of mine worthwhile; I’ve got a Heavenly Father who is leading the way. I just have to believe and obey. His ways are better than my ways.